LovEnlight WithOut

It’s been 1.5 years since I “woke up.”
I won’t say it’s been a dreamy, la-la land kind of journey. Far from it. These months have taken me deep into spiritual teachings and concepts that sometimes my mind can’t fully grasp. And yet, even when my conscious mind doesn’t understand, I know my subconscious does.

Over time, I’ve become clearer about my mission on Earth.

Why I’m here, why I was guided into a particular occupation, and how it’s all connected to a greater shift happening on the planet. Still, there are moments when I question whether I’m really helping at all, at least in the form I am now.

Right now, I’m sitting in a café, typing out my feelings, watching time fly past me. Sometimes I don’t even know how to put what I feel into words.

Shifts and Realizations

Since my return from Mexico and the USA, something within me shifted. That trip wasn’t random- it was meant to happen at the exact right timing.

Of course, self-doubt still creeps in whenever my vibration dips. But compared to before, the differences in me are undeniable:

• My energy feels stronger and more expansive. I believe Reiki played a part, even though I haven’t practiced it for a while.
• I see the unseen. With my mind’s eye, I catch glimpses of light, colors, and subtle feelings beyond the material world.
• I cry more often. Sometimes tears come for no reason, but I can now tell the difference between a happy cry and a sad one.
• My guides feel quiet lately. My “divine team” seems to be watching silently from a distance.
• I catch my limiting beliefs quickly. They reveal themselves like little mirrors.
• I dive deep. The subconscious, the quantum field, frequencies, dimensions—these are no longer just words, but spaces I explore.
• My words flow unfiltered. In the past, I’d overthink before speaking. Now I just allow words to come. Most of the time they land with authenticity and love, though sometimes my human side still slips into emotion and sharpness.

And yet… most of the time, I still feel quite alone.

Money, Purpose, and the Material World

One of the most surprising shifts is how my purpose keeps pointing me toward wealth. All signs tell me that I must create abundance and accumulate massive wealth—not for ego, but so I can help Earth.

Before, I believed money didn’t matter that much. Now I see clearly: money must be in the hands of good and loving people.

This unfolding of purpose isn’t what I would have predicted. Honestly, I still feel puzzled at times. But I trust the sequence of events that led me here.

Where I Stand Now

To be honest, I don’t even fully know why I’m writing this. Maybe because I’ve shifted away from video journaling, and writing feels like the way my soul wants to speak right now.

So am I happy?
Am I peaceful?

The answer is… I’m in the process. I’m learning, unfolding, and trusting—one day, one vibration at a time.

Love & Light

Kai